Monday, February 11, 2019

Our Private Struggles and the Will to Overcome

Surviving and thriving is always accompanied by pain and suffering, even when our personal pain is invisible to other people. Every one of us has intense problems and struggles that we cope with, seemingly making life miserable and, at times, unbearable. I myself have had my share of hurdles to overcome, a few of which I am still working on. In our struggle there is never-ending frustration. We may feel like we make one step forward with one problem, while at the same time falling two steps behind with two or three other problems. This intense frustration can lead to despair, which is the worst emotional state of all.

  
Due to the demands of human society, we usually we keep our troubles to ourselves, to avoid depressing ourselves or the people around us. People don't know why we are sad, quiet or irritable, but our sour mood pushes them away, isolating us at the time we may need other people the most. They say, "laugh, and the world laughs with you; cry, and you cry alone." Social failure also makes us feel weak and emasculated, like we are pathetic, incompetent human beings.

Sometimes these problems spill out in unexpected ways. We snap at the ones we love, self-medicate with addictive or destructive behavior, or have trouble sleeping. These reactions create new sets of problems. If the core problem is not addressed it will grow and attach itself to life's new problems. To compensate for this slippery slope, we must exert the sheer force of our wills to think positively and to engage in wholesome, constructive behaviors that lift us up and make us feel better.



Some common problems that people face are addiction, domestic violence, mental health issues or cancer. Such personal catastrophes often define us, drag us down, but also give us opportunities to grow. They also give society the crucial task of providing necessary tools to fight these issues, whether it be drug rehabilitation centers, shelters for abused women and children, mental health clinics in depressed urban areas or cancer treatment centers with financing options for folks of modest means. For each one of us it is usually something; very few people are without any major struggle or disability.

Addiction as we all know afflicts a great number of people, both in the United States and around the world. The things that we are addicted to could be alcohol, drugs, gambling, shopping/spending, or eating. Alcohol addiction has been a scourge on mankind since ancient times, while drug abuse is a fairly new phenomenon affecting modern society. The opioid epidemic is wrecking havoc throughout rural America, as well as in many communities of artists, musicians and thrill-seeking young adults. Addiction enslaves the person and makes him or her unable to develop their true, loving, achieving selves.



Like addiction, it is hard for many women and children to escape the clutches of domestic violence. Unfortunately, there are huge numbers of victims throughout the world. Too many men give themselves over to violence and aggression, behaving in the fashion of invading medieval soldiers instead of civilized men of the world. These men are out of control and unable to be reasoned with. Fear of further assaults or even death at the hands of one's abuser is often the worst part of the abuse. People close to the battered woman can see a few signs of this, but the woman usually keeps it to herself in order to avoid very serious repercussions.

More secret and often hidden, but no less prevalent, is the scourge of mental illness which causes large numbers of people to suffer in silence, including myself. We feel trapped by our own brains and lose much of the energy required to live a fulfilling life. Many of you may suffer from depression, bipolar disorder or severe anxiety. These disorders can affect people we would never suspect. They can hide in plain view, leaving everyone guessing as to their peculiar habits or behaviors. Once a person's mental health issues are visible, they are often quite severe, requiring the immediate assistance of friends or loved ones.


Last, but not least is the beast that is cancer. In addition to the disease itself, there is the arduous process of chemotherapy, testing, hospitalization and extreme financial problems brought on by hyper-inflated medical bills that often go into collections, maybe even causing patients to lose their homes. No wonder there was tremendous appeal for a show such as Breaking Bad, which I greatly enjoyed watching on DVDs rented from the Bethlehem Area Public Library. The show brought to public attention the issue of how the health care industry mistreats and neglects a great number of cancer patients.

Despair is what makes people give up on themselves, forcing them to live in a never-ending downward spiral of self-destruction. Despair is a danger to people, because it can prevent them from living like a normal human being or can even make them suicidal, worrying and upsetting friends, family members and romantic partners. Unfortunately, people in that individual's life may judge them for giving up, but in reality each one of us could get to that point if circumstances in our life push us to the breaking point. We all have have our limits and each one of us sometimes responds inappropriately to life's problems, setbacks or disappointments.


As previously mentioned and frequently alluded to in previous blog posts, I am faced with a lifelong struggle against mental illness, which includes three disorders: Asperger's Syndrome, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), and depression. My mental problems are largely genetically inherited and have greatly held me back socially and occupationally. At this point in my life, I am taking stock of my situation and am finding ways to compensate for my deficiencies. For example, blogging is a productive and meaningful form of self-medication, one that is healthy.

Many people, however, do self-medicate in ways that are quite self-destructive. I myself have been guilty of this from time to time, using alcohol or food or sleep to cope with my emotional difficulties. For example, you may know a recently divorced man who abuses alcohol to chase away the feelings of loss and uselessness, or the woman who suffers from depression so acute that she cuts herself off from well-meaning friends and loved ones. Often self-medicating can be a subconscious form of self-punishment. Self-punishment needs to be replaced with self-love!


When we are at our lowest, we have to remember that we are not alone in experiencing difficulty and that there is always hope as long as we draw breath.  It is never too late to change; a troubled past does not preclude a happy, meaningful future. Don't focus on the years you've lived, but on the years you have yet to live. We will always have troubles, but with a positive attitude, we will have fewer difficulties and will deal with them much more effectively, limiting their extent and creating a bright, happy future!

As we struggle for self-improvement we will often have setbacks, but we must stand up, get a grip and move forward once again. It is said that a good person falls seven times a day, and this is true. The key is to avoid beating ourselves up when we fall and to think instead about how we can avoid such failures in the future. For example, we can replace overeating or sleeping with comedy shows, enlightening reads or time on social media with friends. Social interaction lifts many people out of their funk.


Once we regain hope, we can make plans for getting out of the rut that we find ourselves in, but only once we decide to motivate ourselves to do what we know we need to. Thinking is not enough, we must get out of bed or off the couch and start MOVING.  Things such as a walk around the block or a few pushups could increase our energy levels and thereby make us much more productive, further improving our mood and outlook on life. Physical exercise is a powerful tonic to treat mental illnesses such as depression.

Despite the fact that we all have issues, each problem incurs a social stigma on every one of us. This makes us feel alone, helpless and maligned. The best way out of this is to draw inward, being the sole advocate for our own happiness and emotional well-being. I like to say, "each person is responsible for his or her own happiness." We need to aptly ignore the judgments of those around us, and to accept and love ourselves; we are the only ones who know ourselves and our situations. It makes no sense to judge everyone else for their problems, while we ourselves have problems, even if our afflictions or weaknesses are different. We all suffer differently, just as we sin differently!


We can try to better understand those around us going through issues, instead of quickly judging them and dismissing them as weak, evil or pathetic. When we take the time to actually listen to someone going through a serious problem, we help ourselves as well as that other person. We help them by giving encouragement and keeping their hopes alive, while we benefit by gaining a close and loyal friend. We come to understand that suffering, along with death, is the one thing common to all humanity. We become a socially aware man or woman of the world.

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